Today made me realize that I am not fit almost at all anymore. Buying a new jogging stroller made me want to go out and take a jog, not "remembering" that I hadn't jogged in oh, let's say close to 9 months! AH! So, I made it maybe a half mile and just stopped and said to myself, "what in the world are you doing?!". I now realize I cannot just decide I want to jog again, I have to work up to it. So, I suppose I will be one of those girls looking like an older woman doing a power-walk for awhile :). That's ok with me if I feel better than death while taking my stroll.
You know those girls who have babies and just "bounce back" to their old bodies? Then you ask them, "how'd you get back down" and they say "oh I didn't do a thing". Oh my goodness how I envy those girls. I have cut out sweets, soda, and tried working out with my child, and I am still fighting the weight 4 months later. Don't get me wrong I am not at all saying I am by any means fat or that I haven't lost "enough" weight. I am saying however that I am the kind of girl that likes to be in shape and have a good work out. Being "in shape" to me means a toned body, and I WILL get there again. However, I will never lose my stretch marks which does hinder my thoughts when I look in the mirror, but then I look at Trentons gummy smile and remember what gave me those beautiful marks. So even if I have to see them every day, from now on I won't see them as a scar, but as a beauty mark :). I love Trenton more than anything in this world, so I'm not in a rush to get my old body back because I know it will come with time, just like his hair..someday ;).
