Sunday, January 2, 2011

Life is just funny sometimes...hardy har har har..

We recently had the transmission in the mustang completely replaced. Well, yesterday it decided to make some not so healthy noises and now we have to take it back in. Here's to hoping that it is in fact the transmission (most likely), because we have warranty on it. It's one thing after another isn't it? :Sigh: C'est la vie..

In other news, I'm getting pretty excited about moving to VA beach this summer. Even though I didn't really care for it when we lived there a couple years ago, I'm excited for the opportunities it will present for our family and Trevors career. We will be able to have Trevor home, and actually feel some what like a normal family for awhile...ah..that will be nice..wait..what does that feel like? I cannot say that I know what it feels like to be a normal family, but that is alright because that's why our love is so strong. We are going on our third year of marriage and we have only spent 1 anniversary together, 1 christmas, 1 of each of our birthdays, and well...you get the idea. Haven't got to spend a lot of time together, so it will be nice :).

We are looking to adopt a dog (hopefully german shepherd at a rescue) when we move to VA...you know..since Trenton won't get a sibling lol. Plus, he loves dogs and it's such a joy to watch him play with them :). What little boy does not deserve his own pet? I mean come on..I can't deny Trenton a wonderful play mate to grow up with that he will NEVER fight with. Oh, that will be nice...no fighting...always playing..woo! At least until the dog chews on his toys..haha.

Sometimes I wonder if it's fair to Trenton for us to not give him a sibling but then I realize it wouldn't be fair TO give him a sibling. We do not want to have another child, and feel that if we did have another one it would do more damage than good. I mean why have another baby that you truly do not want to have in the first place that you could possibly resent later? Ok, call me evil for saying that, but having Trenton was extremely hard on our marriage, extremely hard on me personally, and honestly I just don't want to go through that again. Sure, we could say "Oh it'll be different next time"..sure we could say that, but would it? Honestly, I'm perfectly content with our angel baby and do not want to take the chance of being incredibly unhappy again. I am VERY happy with where we are and ME, and guess what...I'm sane!

With just one child we will be able to give Trenton the life he deserves, and have a wonderful life and marriage after he is grown and out of the house. Trenton was not planned and since I had him young I will only be 38 when he graduates..haha..that sounds so young lol! I can have a wonderful career, and still enjoy an exciting life once he is in college! Yes that is right, I am actually looking forward to our life after he is out of the house...nothing wrong with that. We want to travel and live as a happily married couple...not just walk around the house ignoring one another because we lost who we truly are. When people have children, sometimes they tend to lose themselves, and we don't want that. We love who we are, who we are together, and there is nothing wrong with loving THAT in your life. We love being married to one another, and just want to enjoy each other and our love/friendship through out our lives...we feel that love is enough to fulfill us. Plus, I know Trenton will give me some incredibly cute grandchildren ;).